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Jack Gale
I have awoken to the realisation that truth is the most important facet of my existence, and thus I intend to live in the constant pursuit of knowledge and the recognition of reality. I love to learn. And I believe I stand honestly facing my own existence - not hiding, but rather fighting. (Perhaps I am naive)
I have been gradually breaking down societal constructive perceptions of existence for a long time now, and have reached a number of key realisations. I can no longer accept doing things for dishonest reasons unless a wider motive justly guides me. I no longer see myself to have a great deal of personal value, but instead rate my interests relative to those of everyone around me. I no longer feel the need to lie to people in order to fit in.
I now face a deep personal dilemma - do I concede and try to teach myself to enjoy life alongside everyone else, forgetting about the falsity I see today and instead settling for the least distressing work and the best possible personal benefits to justify my work; or alternatively do I try and find an alternative - breaking from everything I've ever known and instead searching for a means of living without lying to myself. What am I? Truth or happiness?
I join this site to seek help from others (and to help any I can). I will need a great deal of help in dealing with my dilemma, and potentially in trying to forge myself a new life, and I appreciate whatever you have to teach me.
